Budding Author ftw

Wow. Had such a good week so far. The best bit was definitely Tin?sparty. That was just absolutely ace. Got to his at about 8pm onSaturday and I could hear the shouting and music from around thecorner. Got in the house and it was absolutely mental. All around acenice. Got so wasted, it was fucking mint!

And from this littleadventure, I seem to have snagged myself a boyfriend. He?s called Ash(or Big A) and he?s gorgeous. Best bit is we?re so alike, he supportsUnited, he?s a gamer geek and he likes DBZ. We?re going on a date next Saturday to the cinema =]

*Squee*

Lots has happened since last time, namely that I've ended it with D. Yep, finally taken everyone's advice on board and talked to him about it. He was totally not into the conversation at all. Hardly spoke. Douche.

Other than that, not a lot's happened. Finally paid mumthe rest of the money for the computer today, and I've taken upsmoking. Yeah, I know, not a good idea, but I'm falling apart anyway sowhy the fuck not? And I think I've got diabetes so yeah.

Shell'smoved into a hostel and they're sorting her out, so I've startedlooking for a place for me and D. Yes, even though we're not going down 'that' road just yet, he still wants to move in with me and otherwise I can't afford the rent, plus we said if we still want to go for an 'us' once he had broken up with K, why not, and if not, then he's still oneof my best mates. And, to be honest, there's a lot of fit guys outthere.

So, even after all this, why do I feel like I may havemade the wrong decision? I've got this nagging feeling in the pit of mystomach telling me that this is going to end badly.

Well, in the words of Chris from Skins; FUCK IT.

Fucking men! D was supposed to come into Bury and meet me so we could hang out for a bit with Shell and Aaron.

Did he turn up?

No. No he did not.

I told him to get there at any time after 11 but before 3, so when I got there at half 11 I thought he might have been there.

Nope.

It got to half 2 and I thought ?Screw it, I?m going home?. Well fate must have wanted him to fuck up today cos Emma texted me asking if I wanted to go for a ramble in the woods. So she got Bella and we went into the woods near Middleton. Long story short, we found this HUGE hidden area with amazing houses. One even had a frigging LAKE in the back! With an island in the middle!!! It was awesome.

Just spoken to D now on MSN, he says he couldn?t find his crap this morning and he?s lost my number. What crap though? All he needed was himself and his bike! He?s coming tomorrow apparently?

K actually allowed D to come round today! I’m shocked! Seriously. And we spent the whole day together and the most we did was cuddle while watching a film. I could tell he wanted to do more but I sort of put my foot down by dodging the awkwardness.

Also, just watched new Family Guy episodes. LOL. Me and Dagger were contemplating whether or not it was going to bomb, but it totally kicked ass! Apart from a Heath Ledger joke…but other than that it was awesome! And now Dogma is on! Perfect night in!

And I’m not moving to my Dad’s, I text him to ask if there was pets allowed in his flat and he said no, which means I can’t bring Buster, which means I can’t leave this fecking house. Grand

Wow, I’ve had so much going on the past week or so. I finally got my new computer *dances* and as such I’ve set it up so I don’t have to go to my blog to write on it, so we’ll just see how this goes. Erm…what else…been trying to get as much overtime in at work as I can cos we’ve got two new guys in so there’s not much going spare. It’s funny that even though we’ve got two more people, on Wednesday we were still horribly under-staffed. So much so that when Craig was dealing with an annoying customer, there was just me to run the WHOLE shop. Fun times. I’m sure Craig had a mint time with the customer as well though.

I’ve got a total of £12.73 in the bank. This is not good. I need to shell out £16 for a History re-sit paper that I’m going to fail and then because we get paid the day AFTER my bus pass runs out (typical) I need to pay for that days bus fare. Then, when I get paid, I’ve only done about 7 hours overtime, which is…£39.90. That means my wages totals at £236.90 roughly. I then need to give mum £120 for rent, the last bit of the computer money, and then the re-sit fee which I’m borrowing off her. Then £45 for the bus pass, then taking four weeks of dog food into account, which is about £15, say £20 in-case he needs biscuits as well. That leaves me: £50.90 for a MONTH. Is it just me that finds this stupid?

Also, I’ve decided I now want to move into my Dad’s flat as he’s going to rent it out, but I also want D to come with me. There are, however, three things I need to take into consideration for this:

1). Can I take the dog with me?
2). Are there any vacancies at the Halfords around the corner?
3). Will D come with me?

If even one of these replies in the negative, I’m not going, because:

1). I can’t move if I can’t take the dog.
2). I can’t move if I don’t have a job.
3). If D doesn’t want to come, I don’t want to be that far away from him.

I think it’d be prefect. Sure, the rent is sliiiiiiightly more expensive than it would have been with Shell & Co. but only slightly more than it would have been in the house. Plus I can do more hours at work cos I wouldn’t be at college, work and Dad would be literally around the corner so that saves however much on bus fare (at least £45), plus I’m assuming he’d help out if I need it, and he said that the whole flat’s getting kitted out in June, so it’d be pretty much brand new. I’ll see what D says before I say anything.

Ugh.

I've got loads done today.

- Did the house chores.

- Researched how to get ID.

- Beat the shit out of Rock Band drums.

- Wrote a fair few paragraphs for my book.

Feel slightly less depressed than this morning.

Going out with Emma tomorrow! Woop!

And it's only ten more days til the computer gets here. Supposedly.

I've had today possibly the worst news I've ever heard. One of my dear friends gave birth to her first son this morning, but he was cruelly taken away from her half an hour after birth. My thoughts go out to her at this difficult time, and I'm sorry that I'm on the other side of the world or I'd be with her.

Lots of stuff has happened, and true to form, I got bored with the blogging thing. I can't be arsed summing stuff up, but Dad was here so I was all yay. And I ordered my computer...and then the payment was cancelled for some reason, so I'll have to do it again, but one of the offers has run out so now it costs £30 more than it did before, which is marvellous.

D has confirmed that the deed will be done by my birthday, but I highly doubt this as it should have been done...a month ago? Ugh.

I've started reading another book called "The End Of Mr. Y" after realising that four months should get you further than three chapters into a book, so I kicked "The Day Watch" and picked up this one. Pretty interesting after three pages. I skipped ahead a couple chapters to the middle and had a scan and...well...yeah. Smut ahoy apparently. SO didn't know when I picked it up. I literally judge books by their covers when I buy them so I hardly know anything about them when I start reading.

I don't know how to start my book off, but I know I want it to be along the same lines as the paragraph (if you can call it that) I've already written. I might write a little note thing like I did with my fanfics to note down stuff I want to put into the book. I should really take down the ff notes from my board cos I don't write them anymore. In fact, I should really tell ff.net that I don't write anymore...I might do that now actually. Yeah, I'll post it here as well when I'm done.

Edit: 1:23am

I've written a few of these in correspondence with fics I'm unable to finish, and this is no different. Well, it's slightly different.

I'm writing this to say that I will no longer be writing fanfiction. I've reached a point in my life where I need to concentrate on things that reduce my stress levels, and keeping up with the demands of waiting readers is one of the more stressful things.

I plan on leaving college at the end of this school year no matter what happens, and then I will be concentrating on training for the Police which I recon could take a few years, so I need to try and cram as much of my teenage years into the little time I have left free. Both my best friends are going to University next year and I won't, so all the fun needs to happen now, and fanfiction is no longer fun for me. I will also be attempting to write a book with an idea that's been floating around inside my head for a while now.

It is also that I feel very little interest with CSI now that Grissom and Sara have left, and therefore no compulsion to write as most, if not all my fics were about them getting together. Now that our ship has sailed I don't feel the need to live in fantasy about it.

I will leave my page up, but I won't be writing any new stuff and I'm going to take down the unfinished stuff. I am also going to edit the location of my website as I've created a new one dedicated to my blog and the book I'm trying to write, the old website was dedicated to spoilers for CSI, for which I no longer have any use.

I hope no one's that bothered, I do realise it's frigging irritating for me to leave when I was mid flow with a fic, but I do also realise it's been about a year now since I've posted anything for it, and I haven't even made an attempt for the next chapter. I did have a few ideas for new fics, and if anyone wants any I can try and give them to you but some will be integrated into my book somehow.

I wish all the budding writers good luck, and a well done to all the writers I've tried to give credit to throughout my time here.

Peace to you all,

The Smoose

XxX

This is it! I can finally afford to get my new computer! Joy! Just need Dad to give me £100 and I'm ready to order it.

In other news, men are not worth the hassel. So why can't I let him go?

Coursework is due in for Media tomorrow, so I thought I'd go in for 9am and finish it off. This failed, however, as I stayed in bed and watched Dragonball Z. Yes, I'm re-living my childhoof and I've become slightly addicted to it again. Let's just hope that I don't cross the path back into Pokemon.

I am going in early with Dagger and I will do some coursework. I will.

I'm watching some freaky ass TV show at the minute called KNTV: Sex. It confuses me.

Also, Dad's up in the weekend! Very happy about this. Might get my computer finally.

Off to college I go now. Joys.